sHawti3 & p3nd3q
Saturday, May 30, 2009
i mish my baby sho much
im goin crayzee
its been 1wk 1 day
i reali mish him
he has been werkin nonstop since friday
i pity him
he muz b very tired
not havin a proper slp
im mytin him 2moro
i cant wait to c him
he is cumin to my werk place for rebondin
his curls all out
omg
his hair look crazy enuf
i mish him sho much
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DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/10:37 PM}
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
i went to ssdc today
as i hav circuit revision
i was cryin b3fore goin out of my hse
baby said his ezlink card
not enuf
i was so upset
devastated
i tot i cud myt him today
i wanted to make it up abt ystrdy
i juz cnt stop cryin
frm ystrdy
n wen he said dat
my heart
reali went out of my back
den afta my cr
he msg me
he said he felt bad
im makin him fyl useless
by d way i text him
i shud b d 1 fylin useless
he act lyk nutin wrg
he duno wat i fyl
i felt so upset
i juz wana cry
till my tears dry up
but he wun undrstnd
wat he said
made me fyl reali hopeless
useless bum i m
i kept on cryin wen i reach hm
as i msg him
i cry n cry
my tears juz cnt stop
i hav to wait till next week
n i neva noe
if we can myt up next week
its been 4 days not mytin him
we owys myt on weds
n sumor
dis wkend he is werkin
i hav to wait a week pluz
he duno
its drivin me crazy
he doesnt seem to fyl my pain
or mayb
he is juz not showin it
im so so upset
if anyone cud juz undrstnd
if ony he cud
i can wait
but d wait is pain
he is juz not d same
i juz wish i cud hear him
sayin to me
"baby,i mish eu sho much,
a day not mytin eu is
drivin me crazy.."
but no
i neva did hear dat frm him
maybe
he juz dun lyk showin it
he shud noe
i got fylinz
i nyd to noe
to fyl secure
i luv him sho much
im stuck to him now
he cnt let go of me
not now
not eva
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/4:36 AM}
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I donno y
Baby is still angry at me
I said showie many tymz
But he seems odd
He dun text me lyk usual
He dun kol me anymore
He dun say i luv eu
sometymz
i juz fyl odd
coz he now dun express
his fylinz
he dun treat me lyk
how he used to
mayb bcoz of all d arguementz
last month
we fight alot
and i noe
he fyl very hurt
so do i
by wat we each otha hav said
i mish d tym we spent
i noe he still love me
but im afraid
he might 1 day
go away
im reali in luv wif him
sumtymz i wonder
if he even noe dat
i canot let go of him now
coz its too late
im stuck to him now
i juz luv him way too much
a day neva goes by
without thinkin of him
i mish him
even wen he i juz away
to the toilet
i dowana let go of him
if ony
1 day
he juz realise
how much
im deeply
crayzee
in luv wif him
maybe
he wud treat me betta
or maybe its juz me
expectin to much
well i duno
i luv eu sho much baby
i luv eu ony..
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/8:29 PM}
This wud be
my very 1st post
in dis blog
This blog is
ony about
me n my baby
For me to
pour my fylinz
without him knowin
INTRO:
im known as
eLLa
aka
sHawtie
my age is 19
on d
240822009
im in luv wif
dzulfadhli
aka
pendeq/koko
his age is 21
on d
12062009
we have been in luv
since
23012009
at
12:11 a.m
where we got to know?
its way too long to tell
will be kippin
dis blog updated
each n everytym
me n baby myt
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DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/10:00 AM}