sHawti3 & p3nd3q
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
2day is my 5 mthz annie
n i m so hapie
baby sent me a texted
n wen ive read it
i was so full wif tears
haha
cry non stop
baby asked me y im away frm webby
n i told him
i dowan him to c me cry
he was so shocked
he asked me
y i cry
i juz said i duno
well actually im touched by wat he texted me
he said
Happy annie syg.i luv u lots n will still luv u in mthz or years 2 cum.sori 4 all unwanted arguements tat we had.u must bear in mind tat i luv u lots ok dear?smuackz!!
bcoz of dat text
i cry non stop
haha
i luv him way too much
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/8:44 AM}
Monday, June 22, 2009
its gonna b 5 mthz in a few more minz
haha
didnt expect dat it wud b dis long
i wanted so much to c baby wear d necklace i bought
at least if he dun wear d whole thing
he wear d locket wud b fine
i wud b happy
hmm..webby wif him ryt now
i dun tynk he gt my add for dis blog
im beggin so much for him to wear it
juz to show his appreciation
n he luvs me
i will b more den hapie
i noe im secured
he is lyk my otha half of my heart
i luv him too badly
im gettin fond of him
every minute
but it seems he is gettin way too cold towards me lately
mayb ive grown fat
dats y he is gettin disgusted wif me
im so ugly now
i juz cnt help bein miserable
ppl owys say
"eu will tend to do anything or everything
for d one eu luv,n eu will hurt very much"
im hurtin now
but no one seems to care
i cnt find d old him anymore
whr hav he gone to??
i juz cnt find
hav he found sum1 new
hav he gt a replacement
will he leave me
does he still luv me
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/8:48 AM}
Sunday, June 21, 2009
sunday 11:59
today i met up baby
n oso besties yukiyiid
went to esp to chill
hmm
saw dat baby neva wear d necklace i bought
hmm
kinda upset
mayb he juz pretend dat he lyk
d stuff for his bdae
n still gt d cheek to say
dat he cnt dettached his lock n key locket
actually im devastated
if he dun lyk he cud juz say
nyd not hav to act
nowonder he kept it bck in d jar
he wud neva wana use it
he dowan his fwens to noe me
i duno
im confuse
he seems so cold to me
but y
i dowan him to fade his fylinz
wat shud i do
im so miserable
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/9:13 AM}
Friday, June 19, 2009
baby i mish eu sho much
y r eu so cold 2wards me lately
r eu hiddin eur fylinz for me
or r eu juz losin d fyl for me
i luv eu sho much
4 more days
its our 5 mthz annie
plz dun b so cold towards me
i luv eu
n i mish eu badly
hvnt see eu for sumtym
i duno if eu mish me
or not
i hope eu do
n if eu do
plz at least show me
im goin crayzee
plz dun do dis to me
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/7:33 AM}
Thursday, June 18, 2009
sumtymz i wonder
if eva 1 day he leave me
as in dis surface of earth
or in live itself
wat wud hpn to me
i luv him totally
yeah maybe we hav our ups n dwns
but most of d tym
we enjoy each otha's company
he neva fail to luv me
pamper me
spoil me wif chocolates
{i get agitated if i dun hav 1 per day}
he dun mind me wen i baby talk to him
or wen i ask him to piggy bck me
{well he is skinny but strg enuf to carry me}
carry my stuff
{even on his bdae}
entertain my fussiness
fully satisfy me
if eva 1 day we gt separated
it wud surely drive me crayzee
its been 5 mthz
close to it la
n ive been luvin him more instead
neva thought we wud go dis far
i thought he was juz anotha 1mth bf of mine
but no
ystrdy i gt a nightmare
i end up wakin up n cry
i dreamnt dat i went out wif baby n family
pluz his ex??
yeah his ex
she was openly flirtin wif my bf
n baby seems to ignore me
i sat there tryin to control my temper
as dat bitch openly flirt wif my bf abt games
end up
i juz cnt control
{im well known for my temper}
i broke out in tears and shouted
"hey bitch!y muz eu flirt wif my bf!"
i wanted to punch her
but baby stop me
i ran all d way sumwhr
n kept cryin
n suddenly i was awake
n i broke out in tears afta dat
i was so afraid
dat he might go bck to his ex
or mayb leave me
i cry n cry at arnd 4+ in d mrng
i cnt lose him
he cnt leave me
i will go crayzee
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/7:48 AM}
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
sometymz i fyl so un fair
coz evrytink is abt him mostly
ystrdy i was scolded by him
juz bcoz i nudge him so many tymz
well dis is not my 1st tym doin it
ive done it alot of tymz
n most of d tym
he will nudge me as much as i do
so wat if he is sick?
i have 5 cats at hm
n they hav fylinz
they get upset too wen i scold dem
so do i
especially bein scolded at for d things
dat he is used to it
im sick n tired of bein a dog to him
wen he nyds me
he cums arnd
we he dun or juz nyd sumtynk to throw tantrums at
it will all b me
even if i dun do anytink
wat m i?
his gurl or his pet dog
wen he is upset at me
he expect me to noe
wat abt me
is all abt him
he dun evn wana giv n take wif me
so selfish
i m a human too
i got fylinz!!!
so giv a thought abt me!!!
Labels: upset
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/7:21 AM}
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/8:42 PM}
Monday, June 8, 2009
fuckin bro
so fucked up
n irritatin
kip pesterin me
sayin my bf muz ask permission
to bring me out
wat does he think
its 2009
not 1999
i was so fucked up juz now
its not dat i dun wan to brin my bf hm
its juz
i dowan
my family is so currupted
overly corrupted
there is trojans in my family
n any way
i dun fyl im ready
to brin him to my family
its not d ryt tym
yeah
im crayzee in luv wif him
but dat doesnt mean i muz intro him
straight away ryt
2 more years
i juz cant wait to taste freedom
i wanna get my own apartment
wif my besties
helmy n prabhu
3 of us plan so long ago
since we were in skool
i juz wanna get out of dis livin rut
i cnt stay here anymore
i nyd to get out
i hav no parents to control me
n neither do i wan to b controlled
by my bro
wif his naggin
ouh puhlease
he nags worse den my mum
which means
he nags worse den a women
im so sure my sis in law
who pauto him
dat i went out wif his family
pauto kia
i mean
she was sayin dat if her daughter
were to date sum1
she wans dat guy to cum myt her
n guesh wat
im not her bloody daughter
so y d hell is she complainin
my eur own buisness la
is dat so hard
or r eu makin it hard?
i wanna get out
helmy bestie??
wen r we gettin a house
i wan a house
1 lappy
1 pc
n 1 big screen tv
dat can oso b use to serve net
i wan playstation
xbox 360
all d gagets
den we can drink n hav fun evryday
they juz dun understand
dat i dowana b embarrassed by dem
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/11:47 AM}
Saturday, June 6, 2009
baby's bdae is anotha 6 more days
omg
wat shud i get
i reali reali got no idea
d otha day
which is wednesday
me n baby went out to bugis
wif his mummy
uncle auntie yusri
lani didi
maklong n daughter
omg
i was so freaked out for a second
eu now y
coz its my 1st tym
goin out wif his family
besides didi n lani
den his mummy intro me wif his maklong
shockin
eu noe
coz she said it lyk dis
"ella,nie mama pny kakak"
"koko pny maklong"
i was lyk
??MAMA??
ouh
ok
haha
its dat gud enuf?
well i tynk mayb
yeah
now now
i got so many things to tynk
baby's bdae
wat shud i get
i wan to buy him watch
but he stupid
go repair his watch
now its either
clothes
or
external hard disk
hmm
which one?
he said
he dowan anytink
but no
its his 21st
muz hav sum memory of it
hmm
crackin my head now.
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/8:28 AM}