sHawti3 & p3nd3q
Sunday, September 20, 2009
23rd march 2009 12:02am
Happy anniversary 2 u syg!!
so fast time hav past since e day we r 2gether.
n since e day we met.
im so happt tat we get 2 b 2gether e whole nite yest.
im looking 4ward 4 next mth.
i luv u lotz syg.mish u alrdy.
23rd june 2009 12am
Happy annie syg.
i luv u lots n wil stil luv u in mths or years 2 cum.
sori 4 all unwanted arguements tat we had.
u must bear in mind tati luv u lots ok dear?
smuackz!!
23 july 2009 12:04am
Happy 6 mths annie syg!!!
i luv u so much.
hope we wil nt rgue much often anymore ya.
i luv u so much dear!!
shit u msg first!!hehe
msgs eu gav me 4 our annie dat sum i still kept..
evrytym i read these msgs tears jus flows..
i wan dem back
i wan d old days back
whr we myt n owys laugh at our silly things
n tell stories of our past lifes.
i cant bear to lose eu another tym
it hurts to noe dat im in eur heart but d fylinz r gone
im goin to hav eu back
so plz dun find a replacement wen im still here wif eu
i luv eu till d end..
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/3:17 AM}
Monday, July 13, 2009
ive been very emotional dis days
i kept to myself
always away frm others
quite,neva talk much
im stress out
ive been fightin alot wif baby dis wk
neva myt him for more den a wk
im goin crazy n i mean it
i miz him sho much..we r 1 wk pluz more
to our 6 mth annie
n i hope he can myt me
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DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/7:39 AM}
Thursday, July 9, 2009
sumtymz i juz envy my fwenz
their bfs r owys thr to care for dem
they seldom fight
but me
i owyz fight wif him
we owys disagree wif dis n dat
he owys tynk im not matured enuf
i realise dis rs is lyk based on me only
i who ask him out n he agree
i cnt even rmbr d last tym he asked me out
if there is any
now we dun talk on the phone
reason = he dun lyk holding d phone
we dun sms
we barely meet
he can meet his fwens almost evryday
but not me
he used to do dat
not now
well maybe startin is owys lovey dovey
it seems his luv fade alrdy
there is nutin for me left
he is juz goin to dump me sooner or later
n i will juz sit n feel helpless
how i wish everything cud fall perfectly wen im wif him
den nutin will go wrg
tears soak my eyes everyday
i juz cnt hold on dis pain anymore
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DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/7:43 AM}
Friday, July 3, 2009
ive been cranky dis few days
fightin wif baby for few days
im so showie
i didnt mean all dis
im juz paranoid
i cnt let him off my sight
i fyl so insecured
i tynk i dun trust him
im afraid of losin him
icnt lose him
not now
not eva
i luv him too much
if ony he noe
he is not lyk how he used to b
he is more cold towards me
he dun pamper me anymore
is he sick of me
im afraid to noe d truth
coz im afraid to b hurt
AGAIN
im goin crayzee
i noe
i tynk i have adhd
a sort of disorder
i asked him
will he stay by me
if im reali dwn wif dis
he said yes
im afraid of bein hurt
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/9:12 AM}
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
2day is my 5 mthz annie
n i m so hapie
baby sent me a texted
n wen ive read it
i was so full wif tears
haha
cry non stop
baby asked me y im away frm webby
n i told him
i dowan him to c me cry
he was so shocked
he asked me
y i cry
i juz said i duno
well actually im touched by wat he texted me
he said
Happy annie syg.i luv u lots n will still luv u in mthz or years 2 cum.sori 4 all unwanted arguements tat we had.u must bear in mind tat i luv u lots ok dear?smuackz!!
bcoz of dat text
i cry non stop
haha
i luv him way too much
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/8:44 AM}
Monday, June 22, 2009
its gonna b 5 mthz in a few more minz
haha
didnt expect dat it wud b dis long
i wanted so much to c baby wear d necklace i bought
at least if he dun wear d whole thing
he wear d locket wud b fine
i wud b happy
hmm..webby wif him ryt now
i dun tynk he gt my add for dis blog
im beggin so much for him to wear it
juz to show his appreciation
n he luvs me
i will b more den hapie
i noe im secured
he is lyk my otha half of my heart
i luv him too badly
im gettin fond of him
every minute
but it seems he is gettin way too cold towards me lately
mayb ive grown fat
dats y he is gettin disgusted wif me
im so ugly now
i juz cnt help bein miserable
ppl owys say
"eu will tend to do anything or everything
for d one eu luv,n eu will hurt very much"
im hurtin now
but no one seems to care
i cnt find d old him anymore
whr hav he gone to??
i juz cnt find
hav he found sum1 new
hav he gt a replacement
will he leave me
does he still luv me
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/8:48 AM}
Sunday, June 21, 2009
sunday 11:59
today i met up baby
n oso besties yukiyiid
went to esp to chill
hmm
saw dat baby neva wear d necklace i bought
hmm
kinda upset
mayb he juz pretend dat he lyk
d stuff for his bdae
n still gt d cheek to say
dat he cnt dettached his lock n key locket
actually im devastated
if he dun lyk he cud juz say
nyd not hav to act
nowonder he kept it bck in d jar
he wud neva wana use it
he dowan his fwens to noe me
i duno
im confuse
he seems so cold to me
but y
i dowan him to fade his fylinz
wat shud i do
im so miserable
Labels: shawtie=pendeq
DANGER:
Too Much Love Can Kill
{/9:13 AM}